alone

i feel like i am getting alone and alone..
it feels like i have no friends anymore..
some of them call me is not really want to find me, but is want to find my roommate..
(because they don't want to waste money to call to her, and i have sign the package which call among the same package is free)
even they facebook me also for the purpose to find her but not me..
we are going to a same place together.. they are asking when want to go..
they inbox me and call me not to ask when we both going.. but is ask when she going..
when we walk in a group, i am always the last 1..
they walk all way together, i have been left behind alone..
even if i walk at front, i am the first 1.. but no one walk beside me..
all behind me and very far away from me..
i walk very slow until going to stop already.. but no one near to me..
sometimes they all talking about something, and i am sit there don't know what they talking about..
they have anything won't tell me, they just tell among them..
no one listen to me when i am talking..
i am always the last 1 to know about something.. or sometimes even never know..
they need my help and they will come to me, but they leave me when they don't need me.
when i didn't help them, they blame me..
but it is not my fault.. i am not they all 's maid..
when their friend leave them, they come to me.
when they have their friend, they never think about me..
i treat them good , but this is what i get..
i don't like this...
i feel like i am an alien..
i have no friend...s....
nevermind.. i still have myself...